the strt of the day.
it really makes me happy ..
but just right when it's time to go for netball. it breaks my heart into pieces.
cassandra called me and asked me to wait for u at esso.
i waited so damn patiently.
forgoodness sake .. i called ain, where is she..
and i asked patiently .. where are u..
and she said that eu wit her.
she even told me that all the sec 1 including her had boarded the bus.
feeling with disbelieve.. i called once again. where are u.
yet ain told me the same thing.
i saw su en when i was walking to the 28 bus stop.
we chat and chat.. trying and helping to forget everything.
ok fine.
reached there.
saw u talking and laughing with all the sec 1.
u saw me. yet, u didn't even said sorry.
all the sec 1 saw me and look at me as if i was nothing.
they even said to me.
"why never tell them to wait?"
they didn't even tell me that they are going together ..
they didn't even reminded me.
then while waiting for the seniors.
i asked cassandra.
she can even laugh at me.
she said sorry.
i asked her patiently.. "why u didn't call me? inform me that u will not wait for me?"
then she said that she had tried. but failed.
if she no failed.. when i was talking ain on the phone u should have said that u were there.
u can used ain phone and asked her..
then coach came.
i was choosen to help people run.
then after that we went to the ladder thingy.
i did wrong.
at first the senoirs helped me in it. telling me that i'm wrong.
after that.. i missed out two boxes they didn't even approach to me and ask me to do wrong.
like they hack care me. know wat i mean?
then after that do some exercises .. did my best in it.
then we were told to do push up.
we were told to count..
one of the sets i didn't cout.
josephine shouted at me . straight at me.
"don't think u don't need to count"
wei. i also count. people breathless .. count softly.. other people also didn't count...
why i am put in blamed?
then after that we were told to be put in groups.
i was in wei ting group and karyl group..
karyl was as if she dislike me to be in her group.
people expression. human expression. who don't know?
went hope took bus 17.
went up sadly.. looking at the attitude they gave me.
they treated me like a pile of shit.
i tried my best to come for training .. although i don't feel like and i was not really feeling well.
i don't want to put my teamates down. unlike someone who said that seh would come. but didn't.
i don't give a damn if u guys get to read my blog.
u guys don't even care abt my feelings why should i??
I DON'T FEEL LIKE .. GOING TO BE IN THE TEAM. WITH THE WAY THEY TREATED ME.
I DON'T CARE ABT PEOPLE FEELINGS NOW. I USED NOT TO WRITE PEOPLE NAMES CAUSE OF PRIVACY. NOW I DON'T. I DON'T GIVE A PIECE. I GIVE THE WHOLE THING.
i KNOW THAT I AM KUKU.. BUT I MAKE THE EFFORT TO IMPROVE.