well.

today i am respect by others as a sport women. (: i am being selected for the sport leader. when i am going home, the badminton girls, asked me to run with the juniors. i improved their timing leh. haha .. i think i am being so strict that they are scared of me! (: haha. i remembered this girl. her stamina not that good.. she was the last one to run for the 2.4.. she keep on stopping. i shouted at her like i shout at the netball juniors. i think i really gave her a shouting. haha.. she keep on stopping.. haha they i shout,” if you stop one more time, you give me 20 push up” .

haha. maybe i being too cruel. with the thought of fear, she didn’t stop. (: yeah. i think i had done a good job. (:

next thing. i am really really disappointed with my science result. it is like bullshit. i must really buck up. if not, from 1st in class, i think i am going to be last in class. if i didn’t wake up from reality. i must stop dreaming. i must stop being in the ‘fairy tale’. i must stop thinking that i am still the smartest in class. miss chin told me that she is dissapointed with my results. really. damn me. yes, i studied. but how can this happened to me? i even asked jeannie to coach me. but when i touched the paper, why i seemed to forget lots of things. why?

why i am not the old lisa? i want to be her. strive till succeed. i think i am slacker. i must change. must.

work hard to succeed! jia you! jia you!