hiesssssss.
how time flies...
i want to go back camp. i want to do those activities which i never done before.
i miss the instructors.
i miss the scoldings the instructors had to give us because we don't want to cooperate.
i miss the teachings.
i miss sleeping with jia yu, cassandra chew and wen ting at hut 6.
i miss the campfire.
i miss the dance and the cheers that we had.
and round of the applause, i miss round mountain.
i miss yuan shan and jia hao.
haha.
they always give the sian face because we don't want to cooperate.
i remember the first time we had to gather as a group and we got scolded for not cooperating.
me and jia yu was the only doing the group's flag.
our team name is mountain eagle.
she started to give the sian face.
haha
then she told us this, "all i want you all to be happy and cooperate with us, i won't give the charcoal face"
i miss the activites.
the first time i saw everyone trying out the high elements.
how funny jia sheng and edwin is.
haha edwin the gay boy.
go up already say climbing down.
hhaa.
we laugh our ass off.
jia sheng ," cherr, my feet is shaking!"
hahah funny sia.
i miss those friends.
the second day,
i saw the scar on my face, and my mood change.
but thanks, jia yu, she was there for me to cheer me up.
i started to give the sian face to people just because of the scar.
but when i was my friends trying to the dance and everyone wasn't coopreating.
and i told myself this, " this couldn't be happening, i must try to help to!"
and i stood up and also teach them to dance.
after we have got the dance, there is still people wasn't cooperating, especially the boys.
and i told this to roger, cause i know, roger kindda know how to influence people.
" eh roger, come la, dance u dance, the boys will also dance."
then we started to dance.
that is the first time saw yuan shan and jia hao laugh their ass off.
yuan shan is a good dancer, so she teach us how to dance.
i love her dance, she really know how to dance to the tune.
most of the instructors saw what we dance, and all of them love it.
and they can predict that we can rock the campfire off with the dance.
at first, we don't have confidence in ourselves.
but the stories and all the so call nagging.
we started to woke up.
thanks yuan shan and jia hao.
but something happened during the practise,
jia hao suddenly thought that his black pouch had lost.
he then gave a sian face.
he keep on repeating to us, " eh you all got see my black pouch around this size (showing) , inside got 50 bucks leh!"
and were like huh? " 50 bucks only, cher you working leh"
and then he replied, " eh you think find money easy ar?"
and we tried our best to practice to make him happy.
during our dinner, he made an announcement.
he told us that he had found his pouch.
we cheered for him
everyone looked.
and ya, during the campfire, we were the last performance.
we really rock them off,
and ya, many teacher that i've met told me this ," i don't know that you can dance very well, that was really a sexy dance!"
and i then again, i started to be thick skin la
but after the campfire, we had some talking session with the yuan shan
she told us that we had done a great job during the cheer and the dance.
and she told us this, and see that she is crying inside when she told us this.
" yeah, you all had improve. from the first day. i can see that you don't really cooperate compare to other group. but today, you all had showed me something.i really want to thank to you guys for making a fun camp for me and most of the instructors."
and she told this that most of us nearly cried.
"All of the instructors look as if they a strong, but then most of us was aching and tired, but all we could do is smile the whole day. that's why when you all doesn't cooperate, i give a sian face. cause i've got the feeling of shit."
akhbar started to make some jokes.
but then she doesn't feel that it is funny, because it is a moment of serious.
" you think this thing is a shit to you, what do you think of me? do you know that this thing is going to tear down. probably this is the last school. maybe this is the last school I'm instructing.
you are so lucky the get to sleep at this kind of places, it is so rare to get this kind of places to have a camp. cherish the moment here." " cherish the friends who have now, when your parents is not around, who else will be there for u? your friends am i right? so, cherish your friend that you have now, " and then she told us to carry some of the benches and carry the to the canteen and have our supper. and then i started to think about what yuan shan had said.
i don't blame auntie about what she had done. yes,it is part of her life to be damn farking clumsy. but hey, some of the netballers know that i'm suffering from the heat. some of them told me to take care, some asked me how i feel, and put them in my shoes. i was touched. but there is this girl who knows about it, and she was like, " ahhhhhhhhh!"
and continue with the training.
i was like what the fark.
i was in pain and i treat you like one of my true friends.
and i started to think.
this is all bullshit.
how can she do this to me? she don't even care about my feelings.
a true would always be there for us when you are in pain.
always try to make you happy but inside out, they are hurt.
but what the fark?
i was disappointed with her.
i treated her so damn special not like my other friends.
it seems so damn bullshit.
"guys, if you have got a true friend, you are damn lucky. cherish them. you will regret it if you loose them. trust me."


i miss yuan shan la sia.